2009 Proved Not To Be A Good Year For Me

i wished for a better year ahead.
but it din come true.
only a few days into the new year and all things worst come tearing my life apart.
my house is smashed. luckily my room is intact.
my bro is arrested (not for smashing the house, nobody can sue you for smashing ur own house). its for voluntarily causing hurt to public servant. gg to court early tmr morning and if there are no miracles, he will be gg to serve his sentence again. yesh, again. he has another court case on wed too. traffic offence.
hope everything will be fine and hopefully he'll make use of his time there to think through thoroughly and hopefully he'll understand that sometimes, it's better to give up den insisting on continuing when it causes hurt to all parties, whether involved or uninvolved parties.
i had the earliest reunion dinner(or should i say reunion supper?) ever.
god, please give him the strength and faith to go through everything and be a better person. maybe the psychiatrist will be able to help him. or a counselor. make him see the light and not walk in the dark alone anymore.
now that the new year is over, i can only hope for a better year of ox. the lunar year i mean. hopefully my wish can come true. sometimes. there's only one word to describe me: TIRED. not physically. mentally tired. but i guess my parents are more tired den me. sometimes i wonder how can they be so strong to withstand and go through all this without turning crazy. good night. i am gonna go try and sleep.