When I Grow Up

when i was young, i was always hoping that i will grow up faster.

but as i was growing up, i kept praying that i will stop growing.

i hope that i won't outgrow the stage whereby i can take pocket money from my mum to go school and still go out and work part time for extra cash to spend.

but time waits for nobody.

in a blink of the eye, here i am.

24 yrs old, out in the society, carrying all (well, not all, but almost all) the family burden on my shoulders.

i should be proud that i am paying almost all the bills in the house (well, once in a while my dad helps with the utilities bills) but i am really having a hard time trying to pay all the bills.

now i know how tiring it is to be the sole bread winner.

and sometimes, it pinches my heart to see the hard earned money disappear in a click (well, i use internet banking to pay all my bills.)

Now, i even "UPGRADE" myself to become the owner of the flat that i lived in now.

Yesh. Besides paying for the monthly bills with COLD HARD CASH, i pay for my monthly flat loans with my CPF.. Well, i dunno what else do i have that i can pay for anything. is there still barter trade in this era???

Sometimes, i also dunno how i survived paying all the bills and still having to save some to spend on myself with my teeny weeny minute amount of salary.

When just when the going gets tough, the whole world's economy went down. And just when i started praying that i can hopefully get a good bonus and pay rise in July, i get "hints" to not expect any increment or bonus. WTF.

esp when i just applied for SIM's Mass Comm. degree course.

yes. that means i have another monthly installment to pay... the bank loan for the course fee...

and that's the cheapest course i can find. but still, its adds on to my already very heavy burden.

Any idea where can i go moonlighting? i really need extra cash!!!

汤圆节快乐。。

我终于吃到汤圆了。。冬至时没吃到汤圆。。终于给我在元宵节吃到它了！！

今天感触良多。。

家家有本难念的经。。在欢笑背后隐藏着多少眼泪。而在光鲜亮丽的外表后面又隐藏了多少不为人知的故事呢？

人人常说，幸福是靠自己争取的。但是，我觉得一个人的努力是不够的。

幸福不是自己开开心心过日子。而是看到身旁的人也开心。

我就是这样。所以每天都好像很开心。。 天塌下来也可以当被盖似的。。就是因为不想影响到身旁的人，让他们也和我一样不开心。。

但怎么身旁的人都不了解呢？

难道他们不知道他们的所作所为会影响到身旁的人吗？

神啊。。就救救我吧。。。

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Pressies, Pressies and More Pressies

i've been surrounded by pressies recently, be it shopping for pressies or receiving pressies. of cos, i prefer the latter. birthdays and more birthdays. am getting really paranoid abt birthdays... 2 more to come in the month of feb, after giving one one bday pressie today...

i loved the pressie that i got today. its nice. though the colours a bit loud and i tink its too ex. i wuldn't spend that kind of money buying that for myself. well, still have to say thanks to the person who bought it for me.. =) xiexie!

life has been getting a bit better. and i hope it can stay the same.

am still continuing to get ang baos. hopefully there are still somemore waiting for me.. cos... i am really darn broke. haven been so broke for a long time. overspent in 2008 and i gotta repay it all in 2009. that's wat they call retribution.