When I Grow Up

when i was young, i was always hoping that i will grow up faster.

but as i was growing up, i kept praying that i will stop growing.

i hope that i won't outgrow the stage whereby i can take pocket money from my mum to go school and still go out and work part time for extra cash to spend.

but time waits for nobody.

in a blink of the eye, here i am.

24 yrs old, out in the society, carrying all (well, not all, but almost all) the family burden on my shoulders.

i should be proud that i am paying almost all the bills in the house (well, once in a while my dad helps with the utilities bills) but i am really having a hard time trying to pay all the bills.

now i know how tiring it is to be the sole bread winner.

and sometimes, it pinches my heart to see the hard earned money disappear in a click (well, i use internet banking to pay all my bills.)

Now, i even "UPGRADE" myself to become the owner of the flat that i lived in now.

Yesh. Besides paying for the monthly bills with COLD HARD CASH, i pay for my monthly flat loans with my CPF.. Well, i dunno what else do i have that i can pay for anything. is there still barter trade in this era???

Sometimes, i also dunno how i survived paying all the bills and still having to save some to spend on myself with my teeny weeny minute amount of salary.

When just when the going gets tough, the whole world's economy went down. And just when i started praying that i can hopefully get a good bonus and pay rise in July, i get "hints" to not expect any increment or bonus. WTF.

esp when i just applied for SIM's Mass Comm. degree course.

yes. that means i have another monthly installment to pay... the bank loan for the course fee...

and that's the cheapest course i can find. but still, its adds on to my already very heavy burden.

Any idea where can i go moonlighting? i really need extra cash!!!