Missing Him

I cant believe tt i am already starting to miss him.

i tot that i can hold back my tears this morning when the sentence was announced.

i tot i was brave enough to go thru tt.

i have nvr been thru tt.

but those who knew me will know that i am a crybaby.

i cry @ the slightest thing.

i cried this morning when i heard the parents of an accused cried when pleading leniency for their son committed credit card theft.

i cried last fri when i was "accused" at work.

i cried when i watched movies.

i cried when i hear songs with touching lyrics.

and i cried this morning. only for a very short moment.

and i kept breathing deep, cos i know i look like a freak when i cry and he will not feel good if i cry for him too.

4.5 mths.

it'll be another 4.5 mths before he can step into our house again.

the poorest thing is tt poor little derder didnt know that the next time he can "feel" his daddy's touch will be after 4.5 mths, or even longer.

and yet, he still happily hops around the house playing with his toys.

how i wish i can be like him.

everything still goes on even when the sky falls and he will still think tt its just a blanket protecting him from the cold.

how i wish i can be like him.

eat, sleep, play, shit and eat, sleep, play, shit and then sleep again....

how i wish i can be like him.

cry when he is sad and laugh when he is happy.

how simple life is for him.

showered with love from everyone who sees him.

how i wish i can go back to when i am a baby.

can i be benjamin button? opps, btw, i cried watching benjamin button too.

白天与黑夜

矛盾。
白天时，我总喜欢把窗帘拉下，让光线找不到透入房间的隙缝。。
暗暗的房间，总让我有种活在自己世界里的感觉，不必在乎外面的世界发生什么事。
不管时间一分一秒地流逝，不管天气如何的变换。
下雨也好，闪电打雷也好。
我只活在自己的世界里。。。
今天也一样，一星期我总会试着抽出一天，属于自己的一天，把电话铃声关掉，沉浸在自己的梦幻世界里。
到了夜晚，我就会把灯给亮了。
开始变回普通人。
矛盾。
硬要把白天变成黑夜，然后又把黑夜变成白天；
人不就是这样吗？
得不到的往往都是最好的。而，握在手里的却常常被遗忘。
我要学着珍惜手里握着的幸福而不是望着那远处永远都得不到的幸福。。
知足才能常乐。。

EMO ALL OVER

Rashes

Whole body is red thanks to all the rashes. now my body can go in pair with my red phone. damnit.

W44

i love w44. colour of all time.

can i meet benjamin button?

山龟

i feel so much like a sua gu when i first changed to my current phone yday... I shouted out loud when i realised i can actually go to baidu.com to download mp3s! when back at home, after i connected to the internet using wifi, i got a shock too when i realised tt i can also watch youtube and even youku! Tt's really amazing can... If my bb-on mobile is of unlimited access, i will definitely go crazy!! Watch dramas on the bus.. Haha... I shud really say this fone is really a great buy. Btw, i'm using nokia e63...